a letter from my future self--signing papers to my new home
We open the unlocked door and walk straight into our new house... the place and it smells like new leather and stainless steel appliances..
I have my purse on my arm and I'm holding it unconsciously tighter as I walk into the front room..
Our realtor Steve... or was it Bob... is in the kitchen waiting for us
He bellows a friendly hello and I can hear is dress shoes tapping the creamy marble in the living room.
We have to sign the papers today and I am beyond excited.
It's been a long haul finding our place, getting inspections, haggling with the seller, and negotiating the terms of our loan. I feel so blessed that we've had our realtor (it IS Steve) going to bat for us the whole time--a friendly but persistent knowledgeable presence.
I love my new house, and it fits our whole family with a little room to spare. Literally, off the main house. AND it has a basement. Bitch, Oh my goodness... I, I just really feel speechless
Okay, well I'm never speechless but you know what I mean. I'm in awe
I've been imagining this for so long I can not believe that I can touch my front door, MY front door
That we're paying a mortgage and not rent
That the kids have a backyard to play in and hangout
And look how things just pan out for me all the time.
Now the water sound I hear from my bedroom window is a pool, no longer the apartment fountain
A muthafuckin pool
And after we proceed with Steve to sign this paperwork, I wanted to talk to you about some things that I see. (Because you know that I visit you in the past to give you warm solice comfort and understanding--sometimes just inspiration)
Some things that your doing that are good and that you should keep up
And some things
That I see in you that are a bit concerning as far as allowing our dreams to come true
Because I know that's what you want
Your dreams to come true
The papers are signed by the way. We're now homeowners, you can cross that off your bucket list now since it's already done.
But back to what I was saying
I see you are very invested in the conditions in your life going a certain specific way in order for you to feel happy
I get it
I do
I really do because I still feel that way sometimes
But far less than before
But
In order for you to make the strides you wanna make, you have to be more focused on what makes you happy
Happiness for happiness' sake is the name of the name
I know you've been practicing but you need to understand right now you are capable of allowing more of the good stuff in (Good job meditating, by the way)
I'm gonna allow you to chew on that and me and hubby are taking the kids to living spaces tonight to get furniture
I have to go to the bank
Yay
The bank is like my Disney land, honestly it is.
I love you dearly and unconditionally forever and always and don't you ever forget it.
Signing Off,
One Thick Rich Happy Tan Rich Yoga Pilates Doing Brunch Having 850 credit score having Vacation Going Queen
aka Your Future Self <3
I have my purse on my arm and I'm holding it unconsciously tighter as I walk into the front room..
Our realtor Steve... or was it Bob... is in the kitchen waiting for us
He bellows a friendly hello and I can hear is dress shoes tapping the creamy marble in the living room.
We have to sign the papers today and I am beyond excited.
It's been a long haul finding our place, getting inspections, haggling with the seller, and negotiating the terms of our loan. I feel so blessed that we've had our realtor (it IS Steve) going to bat for us the whole time--a friendly but persistent knowledgeable presence.
I love my new house, and it fits our whole family with a little room to spare. Literally, off the main house. AND it has a basement. Bitch, Oh my goodness... I, I just really feel speechless
Okay, well I'm never speechless but you know what I mean. I'm in awe
I've been imagining this for so long I can not believe that I can touch my front door, MY front door
That we're paying a mortgage and not rent
That the kids have a backyard to play in and hangout
And look how things just pan out for me all the time.
Now the water sound I hear from my bedroom window is a pool, no longer the apartment fountain
A muthafuckin pool
And after we proceed with Steve to sign this paperwork, I wanted to talk to you about some things that I see. (Because you know that I visit you in the past to give you warm solice comfort and understanding--sometimes just inspiration)
Some things that your doing that are good and that you should keep up
And some things
That I see in you that are a bit concerning as far as allowing our dreams to come true
Because I know that's what you want
Your dreams to come true
The papers are signed by the way. We're now homeowners, you can cross that off your bucket list now since it's already done.
But back to what I was saying
I see you are very invested in the conditions in your life going a certain specific way in order for you to feel happy
I get it
I do
I really do because I still feel that way sometimes
But far less than before
But
In order for you to make the strides you wanna make, you have to be more focused on what makes you happy
Happiness for happiness' sake is the name of the name
I know you've been practicing but you need to understand right now you are capable of allowing more of the good stuff in (Good job meditating, by the way)
I'm gonna allow you to chew on that and me and hubby are taking the kids to living spaces tonight to get furniture
I have to go to the bank
Yay
The bank is like my Disney land, honestly it is.
I love you dearly and unconditionally forever and always and don't you ever forget it.
Signing Off,
One Thick Rich Happy Tan Rich Yoga Pilates Doing Brunch Having 850 credit score having Vacation Going Queen
aka Your Future Self <3
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