visualization friends pt 1

I go to the party and smile as I walk in. All my friends are here tonight. My husband and some of our family and family friends are too. The vibe is buzzing and all that is to be had tonight is fun. We've got bottles of Moet and Gloria Ferrer, some corona with lime and my favorite tequila-- patron in the green box. There is food going all the way down the long table in the lounge. There is lamb with garlic mustard sauce medium rare, a medium pot of gumbo, lechon (which is roast whole pig), Kare Kare and plenty of rice for all. There is a little bit of my husband's famous BBQ skewers, and some delicious tacos laid out on the table-- carne aside and carnitas. There are so many sparkling ciders, fancy soft drinks, Perrier, Evion, and cases of regular water. There's juices-- all tropical, mostly clear and dark red. There's many women that I know. I know them and they know me. Their husbands and boyfriends are talking amongst themselves. All the women talk loudly, most with drinks in their hands some with juice or water. Some are so busy dancing and clapping and snapping they aint got time for a drink-- it's party time. We sing, we talk, we eat. We check on our children playing outside and in our home (don't worry we've got paid older siblings making sure no one plays with fire and to break up any disagreements). We are safe. We are happy. We are having a ball. We are a sisterhood. Different colors, ages, heights, weights and general walks of life. There's a vibe in the air of feeling good and singing and the feeling of collective freedom and appreciation. If we have a dispute, it's easily solved every time.

We do this about once a month, usually at my house. Sometimes we rotate to other girls homes. We talk together like old friends even though some of us are new friends, normally annexed from other groups of girlfriends. It's so much fun. It's just what I needed after a long week--oh wait, I forgot, I work for myself so my week was set at my own pace and I make exactly how much I want or more doing what I love. I work with who I want to, when I want, and my vendors are all really fucking cool so I am honestly not recovering from anything. Just having a good time with my girls in the comfort of my own home. I have a short hair cut these days, and it's really cute. I like to switch it up frequently. I just feel good and I'm happy for every moment of contrasting "negative" experience because by showing me what I don't want, it also unveils and my vision of what I do want. I hope this warms your heart in the times of trial-- take my advice and make your path to here a short one by doing what to the resistance? Letting THAT shit go!!!

Enjoy Your Life Baby,

Future You