visualization pt 4 family pt 2

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The whole family shuffles through our new suburban two story home. I am happily tired, because I have a newborn on my nipple and a complete life laid out in front of and behind me. My baby has curly hair and slanted eyes, a full face and a calm demeanor. I feel love. So much love. It's overwhelming how much love I feel for this individual-- I know that feeling. It feels delightful and engulfing and so important. It is unconditional love. No matter how many times baby cries all night, or has runny poops in their diaper, I just feel such a sense of pride and bonding. Like this person will never leave me and always love me no matter what. Will look up to me, and want to be like me. Stuck to me like glue. I always do right by you. When I look at you, I see a tiny version of myself and of my husband together. You bond us closer together-- and we thank you for that constantly. You are a celebration. You know I thought of you for a while before you came. I made sure all my loose ends were tied up before you got here so I could bring my absolute A game to raising you with a clear mind that is now focused on the present moment and those things that make me feel good. I wanted to give you that.

Ma is in the kitchen making chicken bouillon cubes and washing dishes. Cy comes home with all the big kids who all say hello to Ma and stampede up the stairs. Janelle and Justin are teenagers and Isaiah is a pre-teen. Josh has just announced he's moving into his own place with his girlfriend and Janae is away at school. I have calls from my childhood waldorf friends, my ucsc friends, and my couple few friends made in san jose and my heart is so full. My Harding family calls and comes over frequently--all the ones I'm on the same vibration with. I have come to terms with so much and I can't even tell you how thankful I am and how much I am enjoying the present moment and looking forward to the future. I hope you read this letter and think about how fortunate you are and start really enjoying and preparing your path to receive all your gifts and wonderful manifestations sooner rather than later.

Love Ya,

-Future You

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