visualization pt 4 family pt 2
The whole family shuffles through our new suburban two story home. I am happily tired, because I have a newborn on my nipple and a complete life laid out in front of and behind me. My baby has curly hair and slanted eyes, a full face and a calm demeanor. I feel love. So much love. It's overwhelming how much love I feel for this individual-- I know that feeling. It feels delightful and engulfing and so important. It is unconditional love. No matter how many times baby cries all night, or has runny poops in their diaper, I just feel such a sense of pride and bonding. Like this person will never leave me and always love me no matter what. Will look up to me, and want to be like me. Stuck to me like glue. I always do right by you. When I look at you, I see a tiny version of myself and of my husband together. You bond us closer together-- and we thank you for that constantly. You are a celebration. You know I thought of you for a while before you came. I made sure all my loose ends were...